Choose Happiness

I've always believed that each of us has to choose to be happy. I hear people complain over and over about the same things, the same situations or the same people but eventually we have to look at ourselves and say what can I do to change my situation? I've gotten to the place in my life that every day is miserable, I hate getting up and going to work. I hate my job. I used to love working, working is a new experience for me, I've always been a stay at home mom. A little over a year ago I decided to get a job. At first, it was great! I loved working, the extra money was nice but then I took a promotion and became a manager. Now I'm so tired, so stressed, so busy all the time. I feel like I'm missing out on my kids' lives, I can't be involved in their school like I want so I started taking a long hard look at my life. I'm in a very unique position, I don't HAVE to work, my husband pays the bills but my money goes towards all the extra things, things like a private school for our girls. Plus having the extra money has gone a long way to getting us out of debt. I've been thinking about cutting back or even quitting for a few months now and today I just did it!

I quit my job! I realized that I'm never going to have peace and joy somewhere I hate. I know how blessed and fortunate I am that I'm even able to make this choice so many families couldn't survive without the second income but our family has almost always lived on just one income so I know that we can do it again. Plus I know that I can always go back to work if I decide that's what I want to do.

But right now, today, I choose happiness! I choose to leave the worry, stress, and headache of a job I hate and go back to where I'm the happiest. At home surrounded by my kids and grandkids. It's funny when I went to work I felt so dissatisfied staying home, my kids had gotten older, they didn't seem to need me like they did when they were young. I was bored with the endless cycle of cooking dinner, sweeping floors and washing dishes, but after a year of feeling like my house is never truly clean, feeling like I never see my kids, feeling like I was constantly missing them, constantly rushed, constantly hurried, I'm excited to be able to be home, to be still, to find my peace again. Wish me luck! It's a little scary, but I feel at peace with this choice.